I am sure there are a lot of people out there, wondering like me where exactly do we "fit in". I am a malayali by birth , with a Christian mother and a Hindu father , born and brought up in Gujarat. Trust me , "fitting in " becomes an issue anywhere I go. I have to make an extra effort to learn some language, some custom , "getting along"has never come naturally or easily to me.
Sometimes I feel it is a blessing, I got a chance to feel two different religions as well as two different life styles closely. I got the privilege to get the best , even compare different beliefs. People like me , invariably grow beyond these boundaries of faith. I am sure it made me a more mature person and helped me in not becoming any "typical" kind.
On the other hand, it is hard to find people of my own kind.. :) because I don't really have a defined "kind" in the first place. When I try to analyse myself as a person , there is such a compound mixture, that to find people who I can relate to becomes difficult. I sometimes feel life and choosing friends would have been a lot easier , had I been a typical malayali or typical anti-mallu or may be a staunch Hindu.I feel ,then I would have fallen in some general category and finding like people would be simpler....
This trail of thoughts hits me almost everyday , when I am talking/ enjoying / may be working in a group. And I find myself wondering "hey I am not like these people either :)." I believe I am not alone, i guess people like me, the "confused" kind is now vast enough to form an independent kind of its own.
I am not happy with being a confused person. It wont be nice to have a world with people like me, we are like water , we mould ourselves differently at different times.
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It's your perception that makes you think like that...You must first try to visualise yourself normal and then see how things would change...and to be frank, to observe different cultures and customs closely is a unique experience...experience worth having....and as u said, it helps you make more mature...!!
Hmmmmm.....
I can understand the duvidha...
although cant say of having the same experience.
I have been brought up in Cantts(army) and have this identity which is no where close to any region...
Have felt that there is this emptiness within.. i dnt have people to call my own in true sense..
dnt fit here dnt fit there..
but it is alright..
It is only the disjointed identities which would give shape to the new world..
The story is simple it is not that we are standing outside the fence...
We are just floating and free...
The truth is the same we only are seeing a different shade...
From within all of us are same..
If only there were more of such faces..the world would have been suffered less hurt..
LOL @duvidha...,
I liked what you said... nice approach...
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